I don't know what it is lately (oh, maybe this little child I have sucking the energy out of me), but I just can't seem to motivate myself to just work out already. I started going back to the gym about 2 1/2 months ago, but then I got a little scared when my back started to hurt. I didn't want to risk more back problems, but I ended up doing myself a disservice by not working out any more. Fitness begets fitness, and my back problem simply won't go away until I get back into shape.
It's just too easy to say "I'm too tired today" or "I'll start after this growth-spurt/developmental-leap/teething-pain is over." But what I'm discovering is that it never ends. There will always be something that can "get in the way" of working out, or making better choices. I just simply need to do it. Aiden seems to be getting back to his usual self, albeit slowly, and hopefully I can squeeze in some at-home workouts while he naps; because this gym thing is not possible during the day. If I create more opportunities to exercise, I'm hoping it'll be easier to get into the habit.
All I know is, I'm tired of feeling bad about myself and looking 6-months-pregnant when I'm 6-months-postpartum.