Friday, June 8, 2012

The Biggest Secret of My Life

I haven't been blogging much over the last 3 weeks, because I've been keeping a secret.

On May 20th, I found out that I'm pregnant with my first child. As the line began to turn blue, I said "holy sh*t" probably fifty times in the span of one minute. When I told my husband after I was SURE the test was positive, he gave me a big hug and we did an awkward high five. We were in shock. I've had irregularities in the past, so we weren't even sure that we'd be able to conceive.

The pregnancy has been pretty much the only thing that's been going on for me, and since we couldn't tell anyone yet, I became kind of a hermit. That, and the fact that I'd been completely and utterly exhausted once my work day was over. The other night, I fell asleep on the couch at 8 pm. I woke up at 10 and it took me a half-hour to muster the energy to go upstairs and get ready for bed.

Nausea hasn't been an issue for me until a few days ago. In fact, it's taken me 25 minutes between the last two paragraphs because I'm feeling decidedly woozy. The nausea doesn't usually result in anything, it's just a nagging feeling. Not fun. I'm ready for the 2nd trimester pick-me-up. I'm tired of being tired!


We didn't keep it a secret from everyone. We actually called our parents about 20 minutes after we found out that I was pregnant. I was disappointed that my brother wasn't able to find out right away, because he was on vacation in Poland. Luckily, he was coming back a few days after we found out.

We couldn't wait to tell him in person, so I called him up. After the 100th time of him yelling "unbelievable!" I knew that I needed to record our phone conversation. It was hilarious, and touching at the same time.

I could've kept recording, but it probably would've filled up all 16GB on my iPhone! To answer the question at the end of the video, I'm about 8.5 weeks. (At the time, I was 5 weeks). We initially planned to wait until 10-12 weeks to tell anyone else, to be in the "safe zone."

But, we had our first appointment yesterday, and the doctor yesterday said that everything looked great. She told us that if I didn't have any complications up to this point, it should be no problem telling the world. We got to see our baby for the first time- see and hear its little heart beating a mile a minute. 

I still just can't believe it sometimes. And then I remember every time I can't fall asleep, even though I'm exhausted. Every time I can't stay awake, even though I have to get up. Every time my husband looks at me with pure love in his eyes, and then rubs my belly.

So here I am, announcing it to the world. We're having a baby! And we couldn't be happier.


  1. Ahhhhh!!! This is amazing. You are now the sixth person I know due in January. I'm assuming January since you're less than a week behind me and I'm due Jan 10. Yay! It'll be so fun to compare notes. Congratulations!!

    1. It's funny because you got married June 12, 2010, and we got married June 18, 2010. Now I'm due January 16, 2013. We got married 6 days apart and are expecting 6 days apart!

      And thank you!

    2. Holy crap, it's like we're on the same life plan or something.

  2. ha-ha-ha you even talking about trying to conceive in what, 2 posts ago? So AWESOME! So exciting.
    So, I've been through this twice already, so please FELL FREE TO ASK ME ANYTHING. Really, anything and I will answer as best as I can.

    I will tell you that about 36 weeks along, I had a total couple day long breakdown because I realized I had no idea how to take care of a baby, not even change a diaper. I was scared shitless.
    But, things worked out pretty well.

    How wonderful. Yay. Babies.

    1. The funny thing was, I was already pregnant in the post I talked about starting a family. But I didn't know it yet!

      Thanks for the offer of help! I'm sure I'll pick your brain at some point. :)